My heart jumped a little, and I’m not even into corny stuff like that. I didn’t realize it at the time, but he was actually exactly my type.He was confident, cuddly, edgy—like some kind of bad boy teddy bear you want to hug and kiss and do all that other fun stuff with. It’s taken me many failed first dates and as many broken relationships to figure it out: I attract and am attracted to men with low self-esteem (MWLSE). Then, he treated me to months of back-and-forth texts, a handful of dates, and a raft of halfhearted excuses.By MWLSE, I don’t mean dudes who are a little bit insecure. I mean men who are so bogged down by their warped vision of themselves that it haunts every aspect of their being.
The latter offers a runner’s high, and I personally find myself eating spicy things to boost my mood. Avoid the relationship pitfalls that are typical of low self-esteem. Both parties just have to accept reality and face what they deal with head on, both on their own and with mutual support.
In retrospect, I should have known I was dealing with a MWLSE.
Instead, I swallowed his lines and tried to look at the positives, even if that meant making them up.
I avoided talking about how much I had hustled to get where I am.
But my accomplishments could never be minimized enough.